Just wanted to quickly share that Gesina has lost weight last night too. She won't be coming home this weekend so we'll see how she does today and Sunday on her feedings for a Monday morning decision.
How am I doing about this? Cognitively, there are a lot of things to help me rationalize this situation. Gesina is where she needs to be right now. The professionals need to figure out the feeding issues and work with her to teach her how to eat effectively. Maybe Gesina's weight is stabilizing to what "she" wants it to be and then she'll gain weight (maybe they were overfeeding her in a way). And finally, I would rather she lose weight with them than with me. If she were home right now losing weight, she may end up right back in the NICU and I would have the opinion that it was all my fault. I don't need that type of guilt right now so again, she is where she needs to be right now. Emotionally, I'm disappointed. I selfishly want my baby with me all day without having to drive an hour there and back to see her. I don't want to have to leave her every night, etc. But I'm old enough to know this isn't about me, it's about her. She is where she needs to be as she learns how to eat.
Oh no...:( I'm so sorry...maybe with her having to learn to take the bottle, it's just a little snag...we'll hope tomorrow is better news. It's natural, I'm sure, for there to be snags to overcome. She had the feeding tube much longer than she's been on a solely nursing/sucking/bottle regimen...Maybe she was a little over fed? I know these standards are kind of an "one size fits all"...so maybe it's simply about her needing to learn that the bottle really is her friend and not just an aggravation she has to put up with. hang in there mama, Ya'll will get it worked out...huggzzz beth
ReplyDeleteYou are right Jackie, I also think maybe they were overfeeding her and she is finding the right weight for her. Newborns usually do lose weight at first when they come home so I think this is just natural since she is not on the feeding tube anymore. And I also think you are handling this like the trooper you are, I am very proud of you:) Love you, mom
ReplyDeleteDiane I think she's doing so much better than most would. I'm amazed, that at the end of everyday, she seems so grounded. I know she has moments that she gets down..how could she not...? I think she must be an amazingly strong and grounded lady! I know you're so proud of her:) We aren't giving up. She has a whole cheering section down here:)
ReplyDeleteDiane, I think your daughter is an amazingly strong, grounded lady:) I know you've got to be so very proud of her! Personally, I don't know very many who would have handled all this as well as she has. Every day that she posts, I'm amazed at how steady she is. I know she has meltdowns, my word, how could she not?
ReplyDeleteGesina has gained very quickly, now without a feeding tube she has to readjust. NONE of us are giving up, I promise! You have an entire cheering section here, we're not going anywhere! Diane I know this has to be hard for ya'll too. As a mother of a mother myself...it's a scary thing sometimes....ya'll stay strong, we are and we're not giving up! huggzzz beth
Ok guys, I'm so sorry, when I posted the 2nd comment, it didn't show up, so I thought it didn't post...lol...now there are 2, so, I'm sorry I've basically said the same thing twice...reckon ya'll Really know I care now...
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