Jitterbug

I realized that my first present to Gesina, my focus object during labor, is a lady bug that when you pull a string, jitters up the string. Hard to explain but she has her present with her now, has opened her eyes and watched it jitter today, and because of her shivering still, I know call her jitterbug. And yes, I do think of Wham and the infamous song "Wake me up, before you go go/Jitterbug". It suits her very well but I still cringe when she shivers because I want to warm her up and fix it!

Today Gesina had her central line taken out because she is no longer on IV nutrition. She also has a very tender and red "rash" of some sort on her upper back. The doctors think it could be related to the central line so that is another reason why they took it out. Now we wait and see if it goes away on its own. If not, the doctors are not sure what it is or what it is from :-(

Gesina is also going to take her last "weaning off" dose of the 3rd seizure med tomorrow morning and so far, she hasn't had any seizures. She also let out a real cry today! I talked her out of a few sour face "about to cry" moments but when I wasn't near enough and the nurse messed with her, she wailed once or twice. While her eyes were open more today, she had a tendency to roll them upwards so all you see is the whites of them. She did this as she was obviously drowsy but they still scared me a bit and I'll ask the doctors about it tomorrow. My hope is it's just part of the sedative effect from her meds but I'm still going to worry about it. Maybe this worrying about the shivering and her eyes is just me making up something to be anxious about. I'll try to focus my attention on the positives, like the fact that she has had a great few days!